I have a terrible headache.

My brain is throbbing and I'm not sure why. It might be my period and I hope I'm not getting sick.

Enough complaining, I have something awesome to post about!

Yesterday, for Valentine's day, Aaron took me to a really fancy restaurant! It's this place called Terrapin. They use this old church and had it renovated to be a restaurant, and there were balloons and hearts everywhere; it was so cute. I was so nervous. Aaron and I are quickly coming to three years together and I never am nervous around him any more, but I couldn't help myself. I think it was because this was our first real date in a while. We do spend a lot of time together, and we go out and have a nice time just hanging out, but this was, like, official. Aaron also wore this really nice outfit; it was brown slacks, and a yellow/white stripped top. Super cute and nerdy. <3 The ride over was nice, too; New York is beautiful.

The food was so tasty. You get this sort of appetizer, then a soup or salad, the meal, and dessert. I totally had to bring half of my entree home. The appetizer was an assortment, and mine had to be altered because of my possible shellfish allergy. So, while Aaron and I had the same thing, he had a lobster portion and mine was replaced with goat cheese wantons that were awesome. The things we had the same of was a bit of lamb in this green herb-sauce, brie and mango on a bit of toast, and a wedge of duck quesadilla. It all was really good, but I liked the duck the best. (And I'm not even a fan of duck normally. Tastes like if you threw a chicken in old grease. lol)

Aaron and I picked the same soup, roasted garlic. It was a bowl of brown, with a large crouton on top. Also, the crouton had a piece of garlic on it which was amazing. I could only have a little bit because it was a biog bowl and also eating just garlic got to me. For the meal, Aaron ordered ribs and I ordered steak. Since Aaron is sick right now we didn't share (he refused to take any of mine if I couldn't pick at his.) but he did say is was awesome. Mine was great; it had blue cheese on top, a side of potatoes and a side of spinach. It was perfect. Dessert Aaron had something with apricot, and I had a chocolate-lava dealie with ice cream. Keep in mind that the portions were smaller than a normal restaurant by about half to a third, (aside from the soup, that was a lot.) and we still both couldn't clean our plates. lol Oh! Also, we had drinks. Aaron got a mojito, which is his favorite, and I got something called "Lusciously Lavender" which was so good. They took a Lavender vodka, then added lavender syrup. It was amazing and rather tart.

I love hanging out with Aaron, and going on dates with him is always amazing. He manages to use his humor to get me to blush. He told me the things he loves about me and we chatted about a bunch of little things, too. One of the things is he said I have four distinct laughs and he loves each one. He then started to describe these laughs, which made me, well, laugh.

Also since he was sick he stayed home and we cuddled and watched a movie! XD It was a wonderful Valentine's day. <3 I am so lucky.

Aaron made me coffee before the left for work.

I am home alone today, and will be for the rest of this week. Aaron's parents went on vacation together, which is great, but Aaron also has a 9-5 job that is about an hour away, so from 8 am - to a little after 6 pm I am by myself in a house that makes a lot of noise. I grew up alone, and preferred the time to myself over spending it hearing my mom bitch about stuff, but I had people to talk to on the phone, I had stuff to do online, I knew the neighbor hood and could go to the park. Out here I don't have a park to go to, plus there is a lot of snow all over and my little canvas shoes won't stay dry. I'm not as much of a phone person as I was and even if I was, I don't have many people I could call and talk to for a long time.

I do have things to do that can keep my mind busy. I can make dolls, draw, look up stuff to read, play Wow, but still, trying to feel comfortable alone in a house still just creeps me out too much. I know I should stop reading creepy stories, and should not watch scary movies, but I enjoy them too much, and I've always been this paranoid; even before I got into horror.

It's only been an hour since Aaron left for work, but it feels like it should have been one and a half if not two already. I know I'll be okay, but I just needed to vent.

On a different note I have to call Fashion Bug today. They need a part time sales person, which is good for me. Sadly I have no way of getting to my interview. Hopefully I can ask Aaron's sister Rachel to take me. I know she won't mind, but I hate to ask favors from people sometimes.

It's not that I forgot, it's just that I .... forgot?

I haven't posted in a little while, I would remember to but I'd be in the middle of something else. When I had nothing to do I didn't think of blogging. So, I didn't forget, technically, but, also, I kinda forgot. Sorry!

So, I've worked on a few things. I made two new dolls, one is a cat and one is a little goblin. They are on my facebook, and right now I'm on Aaron's mac. I figure anyone here also has me on facebook anyway and has probably already seen them.

Something that's cool is Aaron's sister Rachel gave me a 50 dollar gift card to Hobby Lobby for fabric so I could practice more. It was really nice, but a little awkward at the same time. I will take something if someone offers and I want it, but I'm just not that used to people offering me things out o the blue, and that much. So, I got some gray, blue and purple broad cloth because it was only three dollars a yard and not too hard to work with. I made my own patterns and am learning what works and what doesn't. I've even figured out some basic embroidery for the faces.

Also, Aaron's mom is being really supportive which is nice, however, it's weird how she does it. I'll show her a doll and she'll ask it if it has a name. The first one I made, the bear, she did this little voice, turned it toward me and went, "Are you my mommy?" My own personal issues with that aside, that's still weird. I said no, and then she proceeded to make the bear cry. It broke my heart, and then the fact that she could tug on my heartstrings made me kinda frustrated with her. I had to tell myself, in my mind, that the doll wasn't crying and that she was weird to shake it. (She did the voice well, obviously.) That with my own issues with family and abandonment just made it uncomfortable.

Aside from that weird moment she has been insisting that I keep each doll I show her. I think/hope she just wants me to keep one and will let me give and sell the rest. There are some people that I have promised dolls as gifts, and then as I learn I do want to sell some and maybe just made back the cost plus a little extra. I know I won't be making loads of money from this. Here's hoping that Aaron's mom will chill out about whether or not I keep or sell the dolls I make. All that aside; I do appreciate the support.


Monday I have to call the Fashion Bug and see if they looked at my application. I always thought at 24 (closing in on 25 on the 22nd) I would have a jobs that pays well. Guess not. :< ... That's why I make dolls. It makes me feel like I'm doing something with my life.